Reality of my dream

There are times when I feel on top of the world! Here's why...

1. I am this very brave woman who took the risk not many dare to (I am told this a hundred times a day!).
2. I have started of okay enough, thanks to some good friends/contacts who seem convinced that I could do a good job and referred me to some people.
3. I may, just may, achieve my 6 month projections. Hmm.. optimism ka limit nahin hai.
4. I have family and select pals really rallying for me. Dont know what I do without them.
5. I may not have to starve or beg in the near future! Hmm, and this when I was ready to slum it too! he he!

Hmmm... no matter what I achieve, no matter how far I go, I know one thing for sure. I am living the reality of one of my fondest dreams, whether or not I enjoy the moment, well, depends on the moment.

And yes! there are 2 more dreams to think about, lets see where we get!

Having a ball!

Hmm... I knew it wont be easy, but whoever warned me about the travails involved which have nothing to do with doing business:

- The maid doesn’t turn up on time. The cook too does a vanishing act. I’ve gotten so unused to cooking that I can’t summon up the energy or enthu to cook for myself.

- I get stuck on a flyover (right on top) in the noon heat! The darn thing just stopped. Sigh! Had the presence of mind to call the service guy (thankfully close to the place of the ‘incident’). They sent a mechanic – poor guy came on a bike himself, which I promptly pinched to deliver to his service center. And then on to go about my business. The silliest part? Calling clients/prospects and telling them am slipping on time..

- Client1 is at point X – meeting planned for 11-1pm. Prospect1 is at point Y – meeting planned at 4 pm. Irony is, X and Y are less than a km from each other. Had to come back home which was 5 kms away, eat lunch and then go out again! Any doubts why I resemble a crow right now?

- Courier and faxing… sigh. Where is the old office boy from ex-employer! Want to whistle for him. He he!

These arent really cribs.. you should hear me to make out the difference!

Temptation

I know this was a dream I wanted to make a reality and all that, yet it is tough to remember that every time I go some place to meet prospects. Dude/dudette meet, we talk, I show my portfolio, we talk some more, and then the question: Why don’t you join us full time? Tell us your price and we will try and match it!

And that is when the questions come fast and furious:
Is that all I amount to? Some thing that can be bought? Some thing that has a price?
Why do I have to contribute as a fulltime person? Why not as a consultant?
Why do I stubbornly stick on to this 'idea'? Why cant I work 'for' someone?

Some of the answers are within me. While some others are waiting under a cloud, to be unveiled…

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